Sunday, February 7, 2016

Temporary Hiatus

Lately, I have been uninspired and am having a bit of difficulty deciding what direction I want to take with my blog.  Of course I don't want to force content just so I can have something to post, but I also don't want to let the blog wither away.  I do like the entries that I've written.

Medication-Induced Dreams
Prior to writing my first entry, I remembered every single dream I had to the smallest detail.  After deciding to write about them, suddenly I don't remember all of them.  I'm sure this is all in my head, but that doesn't help with writing content.

Small Goals
I really do love the idea of these posts, I'm just not sure I want to have them on my blog or somewhere private.

Monthly List of Horror Movies Watched
Yes, I love horror movies, but I don't watch them every single day or enough to really make a monthly list.

So with that said, I will be taking a short hiatus to figure things out.  See ya soon.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

oo3. Medication-Induced Dreams: Programming Lives

It's been awhile.  Let's just right into it!


Programming Lives

It was going to be the holidays and I'm at work.  Tyrell was programming something and so I went to my desk to work on my own program.  As we did that, bands from across the world of all ages showed up.  One of the bands was a legend and it was headed by Bill Nighy.  I had placed them inside one of the rooms on the further side of campus.  The other bands were in a stadium, but on the bleachers, and as they performed they stood and played.  Underneath the bleachers is where everyone else was, but mainly my other coworkers.  Several times I asked them when the band I was in charge of was going to play, but they told me that the legends were too old to make it to the stadium.

Felix finally decided that the legends needed to play and so I went outside of the building where the bleachers were and ran across campus.  It was as if I knew I was dreaming because while I was trying to run I couldn't, but I kept pushing myself and put all the effort I had into running.  When I made it to the building, I got the band and told them it was time that they played.  Bill Nighy had a cane and I walked with him.  He was fantastically dressed and walked with confidence.

It took a little bit, but we finally got there and when we did they started to perform.  While they did that, I went back inside under the bleachers where some of the other bands were waiting.  Then I went into a lower level to get something to eat, but as I was there I started noticing all these cats from everywhere.  That's when I noticed that the barrier between the floors was open and all the cats from the upper level were coming down.  I yelled at the cats for them to go back up and they all started scampering back up.  Because of the cats, the building was falling apart and was going to crash down.

Few people had the ability to teleport and if they touched you, you would go with them.  But also if you touched other people they would go with you, too.  One of the women grabbed me even though I was not expecting it and in turn she grabbed someone else with her other hand and I started to grab touch people around me to save as many as we could.

In the new place, one of the buildings is where Tyrell and I had our programming robots.  They followed our orders and noticed that there was another ship further away.  In our minds we went to the other place, but didn't see anything.  When we returned our robots were acting like babies.  The other ship had taken control of our ship and reprogrammed our robots.  That was when we were put in various small circles and the "others" would pick a person to sacrifice and they would jump into the hole in the middle of the group.  I don't know where the hole went, but once someone went in there they would never return.

My circle had many of my female cousins on my paternal side.  My cousin Natalie was selected, and even though I was scared, I told the robots that I would take her place.  Our cousin Jackie fought it and said that Natalie was picked so she needed to be the one to go.  It started to convince the robots, and I told them that Natalie is becoming a mother and I am not a mother so they WILL take me instead.  I dove into the hole, but before I could fall in completely, Jackie once again tried to stop me.  Kicking my way in, I finally fell inside.  Then I woke up.

Friday, January 1, 2016

Small Goals: January


Who's ready to get started with their new year's goals?! *points to myself* This person right here!  So let's just get right into it. First I'll give a quick update on my the small goals I sent for December and then share what I plan on working on this month.

Idea: writes like a girl

» Small Goals for December - Reflection

o1. Write at least one blog post a week.
Done!  I did put in a lot of effort to make sure I completed this and I'm glad I stuck through it.

o2. Complete my Halloween cross-stitch project.
I guess technically I can't say that I completed this, but I'm proud of myself for logging 67 hours and 44 minutes on it.  There is a great possibility that I could have finished it had I not run out of black floss and it wasn't sold out at the craft stores I was willing to go to.  I avoid stores during the holidays for obvious reasons.

o3. Make this Christmas memorable for my mother.
Done!  On Christmas Eve we watched the movie Krampus, ate a lovely and delicious meal at Marie Callender's, and went Christmas light-watching at Windcrest, a popular area in town where the folks go all out decorating their homes.  On Christmas Day we watched a new favorite of ours called Love at the Christmas Table and drank hot chocolate with marshmallows.  It was such a lovely time together!

o4. Make more meals at home.
Failed.  I have a plan already for the new year, which I'll talk about in my small goals for this month.

o5. Come up with a plan for my Passion Planner 2016.
Again with another that I can't technically cross off my list.  So far I've put a lot of thought on a plan and have started to work on it since December 27th, 2015, but I'm still not satisfied.

With 2 out of 5 completed and 2 out of 5 almost completed, I'd have to say I did a damn good job in December!

» Small Goals for January

o1. Write at least one blog post a week.
I definitely want to continue with this one.

o2. Run 85 miles.
For 2016 I joined ilovetorun's 1000Miles1Year challenge.  Calculating, that's about 2.73 miles a day.  It's going to be a huge feat and I will have to have a ton of determination, but this is a challenge I am determined to take on.

o3. Journal every day.
Another task I started in December is journaling every day.  So far I have six entries and it has helped to sort of empty my mind of wandering thoughts.

o4. Make more meals at home.
For the new year I came up with a sticker-chain plan.  Basically, for every day that I do not purchase a meal at a restaurant I will put a sticker on the date of a home-made calendar (out of construction paper!) I made.  Of course, there are going to be times I eat out, I just don't want to do it as frequent as I have been.  Since weeks start on Sunday, I've been doing this since December 27th, and so far I have five stickers in a row!!  I have never gone five days in the past 5 years without buying something at a restaurant.  So already, I'm proud of myself.  I just need to keep it up.

o5. Do yoga once a week.
For awhile I have been wanting to get into yoga because of all the positive benefits I've read about.  So I'm going to challenge myself with doing one YouTube video or class a week.

I really am excited that the new year has begun :)

Thursday, December 31, 2015

2015, Tonight We Say Goodbye

The end of the year is finally here!  New Year's always makes me so excited and hopeful of what the future brings and the goals I'll set for myself.

This past year has been such an emotional roller coaster with getting out of two horrible pseudo-relationships, the death of a dearly beloved friend, and the deteriorating health of one of my kitties.  But there were definitely some great times.  I met so many new people who are now good friends of mine and my new job (the one I started Dec. 16th, 2014) turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life.  Such a wonderful environment, supervisor, and group of people to work with.

So now, here are some end-of-year favorites!

» Favorite Discoveries of 2015

© Passion Planner
Passion Planner

In general, I'm a calendar and planner phreak.  Love them, but seldom keep up with them so I try to avoid purchasing them.  As I previously mentioned in an older blog post, Xandra from Heroine Training wrote about her Passion Planner and, after looking into it more, I wanted to give it a shot to see if I would use it, would it be helpful to accomplish any of my goals/dreams, and to have a history of how I reflected on my life from a month-to-month basis.  It's actually quite enlightening and needed if you're like me and not too sure where or what you're doing with your life.

I'm not dissatisfied, per se, but I definitely am not satisfied with my life.  There are so many things I want to accomplish that I put aside because of laziness, being depressed, and allowing other things to control my decision-making.

The Passion Planner has definitely helped with a piece of it in terms of deciding what's important to me and what I want to work on first.  I'm still figuring out how to use it that will satisfy me (I tend to overwhelm myself with consistency and color-coding), but it truly has been helpful.

Bob's Burgers (2011 - present)

Words cannot describe the amount of love I have for this TV show.  About a year and a half ago one of my friends suggested that I try watching a few episodes since I reminded her of Tina, but I didn't care for it much.  When I purchased an Apple TV and got a subscription to Netflix several months ago, I decided to attempt again and I have yet to stop watching it.  I am what I like to call a 'repeater,' I will watch something over and over and over and over and over again because I love it so much.  And so far Bob's Burgers is still going strong, with at least four months under my belt.

Several of the characters annoy the hell out of me, but the show wouldn't work without them, which in turn makes me love them.  It's difficult to choose a favorite character because I appreciate them all for their own reasons.  However, Bob is and will always be my spirit animal.

» Favorite Movies Watched

This list consists of my favorite movies I watched for the first time in 2015 (could be new or old releases).

Insidious: Chapter 3 (2015)

First off, I am a HUGE fan of Leigh Whannell.  His crazy, messed up, horror-filled mind simply pulls at my heart strings.  This story is the prequel to the first movie.  The Insidious franchise, in itself, is fantastic, but this movie was also Whannell's directorial debut and he did not disappoint.  I was very curious how he would direct his own story and the type of scares he would give his audience, which was a simultaneous combination of first and third person perspective.  Honestly, I was surprised that this movie scared me more than the other two.  Whannell should definitely direct more of his own stories.

The Woman in Black 2: Angel of Death (2014)

Despite having mixed feelings about the first movie after reading the novel it was based on and 'shockingly' discovered the novel was way more horrifying than the movie, I still wanted to watch this one.  The trailer looked like it would be a good one with jump scares, plus I like that era of time.  The plot was a little weak and I still have questions, but it was wonderfully made and scared the shit out of me.  I watched it alone at home in the dark, as horror movies are meant to be watched, and it did take a couple times for me to get through it.  That reason alone makes me love it.

Last Shift (2014)

Last Shift brought a whole new type of hell to horror.  The story is about a young, new, female police officer who is watching a haunted, recently-closed police station.  I really can't find a way to eloquently say it, so I'll just be blunt: All types of fucked up shit happened that really threw me off and left me completely shocked.  This one hit close to home because I live alone and the thought of the events the police offer went through happening to me at any given location added an extra touch of fear.  Good job.  I loved it.

Come Back To Me (2014)

What a nice hidden gem on Netflix!  Not a horror, but a fantastic thriller.  A young, married woman deals with constant blackouts and in all the confusion is unable to tell the difference between reality and 'dream'.  Not only is she and the other characters confused on what is happening, but the movie also leaves its audience with the same vulnerable feelings.  Nathan Keyes does a great job being a creeper and sent shivers down my spine.  What truly left me speechless was the ending.  Bravo.

Haunter (2013)

Another lovely gem on Netflix!  The idea of the story was very original with believable characters and a great dose of creepy.  Teenager Lisa is stuck in a time loop and must solve the mystery to save herself and her family.  Abigail Breslin is such a phenomenal actress, and anything with Peter Outerbridge is exciting!

Krampus (2015)

Last, but certainly not least, Krampus!  The demon character alone would have made me watch this instant Christmas classic, but Toni Collette and Adam Scott are two of my favorite actors so obviously I had to watch this flick.  The plot and characters were phenomenal in representing the true spirit of today's society's Christmas time.  Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed the terrorizing minions and the powerful dynamic of Krampus.  However, the facial sculpture created for the character is what disappointed me and I really thought I would have enjoyed the demon beast more.  Great story, nice scares, and am looking forward to adding this movie to my Christmas movie collection.

» Favorite Music of 2015

First of all, it is super exciting that I have had my account for 10 years!  That's a lot of music data collected!  Here are the top artists and tracks based on my scrobbles to

  1. Paul Shapera: 599 scrobbles
  2. The Smashing Pumpkins: 535 scrobbles
  3. Purity Ring: 194 scrobbles
  4. The Killers: 191 scrobbles
  5. Korn: 166 scrobbles
  6. Twenty One Pilots: 161 scrobbles
  7. American Horror Story Cast: 142 scrobbles
  8. Scars on Broadway: 121 scrobbles
  9. Nada Surf: 109 scrobbles
  10. Javier Navarrete: 101 scrobbles
  1. American Horror Story Cast - Gods and Monsters (from "American Horror Story") [feat. Jessica Lange]: 142 scrobbles
  2. Paul Shapera - Possession: 73 scrobbles
  3. Nada Surf - Popular: 72 scrobbles
  4. The Killers - Mr. Brightside: 69 scrobbles
  5. Sia - Chandelier: 49 scrobbles
  6. The Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm: 46 scrobbles
  7. Kavinsky & Lovefoxxx - Nightcall: 45 scrobbles
  8. Silversun Pickups - Circadian Rhythm (Last Dance): 42 scrobbles
  9. The Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet with Butterfly Wings: 41 scrobbles
  10. Tove Lo - Habits (Stay High): 40 scrobbles

Goodbye, 2015.  It's time we let each other go.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

New Year 2016: Passion Plan for Weight Loss

As I mention in my previous post, my main focus this coming new year is going to be my health, both physical and mental.  This entry is geared toward the physical aspect.  As we all know, in order for our body to be healthy we need to be mindful of the food and liquid we give it, along with doing physical activity that will raise our heart rate.  Considering this could quickly become overwhelming for me, with the help of my Passion Planner, I have broken up the tasks by time frame interval.


  • Food journaling | For awhile I was journaling my food intake on my Fitbit, so I plan to return to that.
  • Portion control | Haven't come up with a game plan yet, but I am thinking about it.
  • More veggies, fruits, nuts | They're simply healthier.
  • More vegan- & vegetarian-friendly meals | Not on here for my health benefit, but for the love I have for animals.
  • Home-cooked meals | I really am going to put in A LOT of effort to do this more than eating out.


  • Meal planning | Allows me to be excited about home-cooked meals and the flexibility to move meals around.
  • Meal prepping | This is key to my success in not only eating healthy, but in saving money from eating out at restaurants.

Several Times A Week

  • Meal prepping | Knowing how quickly I change my mind on food, I am going to have to do this more often.
  • Exercise: Running | At least twice a week I walk/run about 4 miles.  As I begin to make this a habit, I will eventually increase this by at least two more days a week.
  • Exercise: Strength training | Whether I keep my gym membership or use the Gorilla Workout app, I want to do this at least three days a week.
  • Exercise: Other | I'm leaving this option for other things such as classes or activities that happen to also be a workout.
  • Healthier choices at restaurants | I have my favorites and stick to them about 99.99% of the time.  If I eat out, I want to at least do better and eat healthier.  Or at least give the healthier meals a chance to see if I can find a new favorite.

Even though the new year has not begun, I have already started to use my new Passion Planner since it does start with tomorrow's date.  The plan is to incorporate these tasks with my daily and weekly activities.  Then as I become successful with that I will increase repetition throughout the time frame and...basically, just see how it goes.

This is not a perfect, flawless plan.  I expect there will be modifications done as I progress learning from my mistakes and triumphs.  However, seeing what I've already added for this week in my passion planner, I'm excited to make healthier choices before the new year even starts!

What healthy habits do you have?  If you already or are planning to focus on weight loss, what's your game plan?